The Moon is New in the astrological sign of Libra. Cardinal Air and the balance and refinement needed to bring into the aethers those thoughts that will lift and inspire. Maiden Moon is hidden from view but Hers is the energy that tests the waters of faith. Faith that she shines brightly despite her dark veil. Faith that she will come to Her fullness as the days pass and in that fullness the splendor of her beauty will shine down. Faith that as is the cycle of all things She will pass into her mantle of wisdom and deep gnosis. Read more …..
I know my strengths and my weaknesses and I have made allies of them both. I have felt the wrath of the Lord of Time and in his terrible wake I have learned to use time purposefully.
I have stretched and strained against a skin that was too tight. But in the weariness of my surrender to its necessary structure, I have marveled at what was birthed from its metamorphic cocoon.
I have remained steadfast on my spiritual path and when the Darkest night of my Soul’s searching pulled me into the chasm of doubt, I listened to the truth of my heart.
I have known failure and have been the intimate companion of the false pride and ego that covered those tracks. I sought the comfort of superiority to hide the shame of inadequacy. And in each place of comfort I have fallen further from my true self. Age has taught me the transparency of this pride and dues that are to be paid to feed its illusion.
I have embraced the Dark Mother and become her instrument when needed and although every action taken was not guided by wisdom’s hand the knowledge of my fragile emotions taught me the wisdom of compassion.
I have listened when I did not want to and found that what I imagined to be the empty space of my knowing was abundantly filled.
I have expressed my truth loudly and boldly, when perhaps I should have remained silent. And I have been silent when standing up for myself would have produced a better outcome.
I have seen the best and worst in myself and allow each to flow in accord with the stream of my heart. That stream has carried me to places unexpected and at times the dams that caused rerouting were placed there by my own intention.
I have the writings of my youth etched into the body that has become a Mother and protectress of what I created. The Crone has spoken her words to me along every step of my journey, even at the time before word was my own and the strength of tiny legs would carry me into her arms.
I have crossed the Gates of Time and my actions have made intentions that brought me to places I had never thought would be revealed. And, all the while I stood at the center of the chaos I had created in striving too far and too soon.
Now I understand. Now I see the order of my own sacred Universe and no longer do I fear the remaking of what I will become. The imprint of my life will forever be encoded within the passing of the aeons and the memory of my existence will seed the creation of what is my legacy. I willingly step into this cocoon of rebirthing as the next journey of my life’s adventure unfolds and when the time is readied and the vessel has been rendered whole, I will emerge as the butterfly , gossamer wings of graceful beating carried on the current of a life well-experienced…….
I share this writing with you, as the transiting planet Saturn aligns exactly with my natal Saturn tomorrow. This is my second Saturn return and one that in this iteration, and because Saturn moved through a series of Retrogrades, passed over this “sweet” spot 3 times.
For those of you not familiar with what a Saturn Return means, here are the basics. The planet Saturn is equated with the archetypes of time, Karma and crossing Thresholds, to name a few. This work is typified by rigid structure and a restoration of order to what has been or could become chaotic and random. Traditionally, there is not a whole lot of flexibility in the demands of Saturn, but this necessary constriction actually does provide a greater level of opportunistic flexibility that is the effect of reining everything in. Imagine a whirling bowl of candies and you have your intention set on just the piece you want. It would be much more difficult to grab on to if there was no structure to contain it (the bowl). And, regardless that the candies are spinning and not a still point of retrieval, if you slow down (time), center and focus (your internal structure) you will eventually be able to discern the patterns occurring (flexibility in patience and observation) that will provide just the right moment to reach in and grab (retrieval on the threshold) what you desire.
The “return” occurs when transiting Saturn comes to rest at its exact position-house and degree – as it was in your natal chart at the time of your birth; approx. every 29-31yrs. Most will have at least two Saturn returns (ages 29-31 and 58-62) in a lifetime. These life markers are often denoted by a prominent change of events. For instance, when I was 29 I had my first child, which caused a modification of my dancing career and by age 31, I was pregnant with Twins, which ended it completely and made me a stay-at-home Mom. I had identified myself as a dancer from a very young age so this sudden and final removal of it from my life, not to mention that I no longer had the thin body of a dancer, which I had finally controlled, did a real number on who I thought myself to be. I loved being home with our children and in looking back, that first pregnancy probably saved me physically since anorexia was preying heavily and having another life to be responsible for forced me to restructure, rethink and start eating. The four children that followed each brought their own blessing and a new realization of who I was in many settings and the impact of that self on others.
At the time of this Saturn return, all 5 of our children have graduated college (they were 5 under 5), and all within a short period of time. Three have moved to the West Coast (we live on the East) with the other 2 soon to follow to destinations unknown pursuing people and animal medicine. This has not only left an empty nest and very quiet house, but also the endings of the way in which we interacted with our children; no longer children but, adults. This has been an adjustment in knowing when to step in and when it is simply overstepping my bounds. Another point of redefining who I am in their world and finding that place within my own. A new job presented itself with more responsibility and a greater learning curve and the leaving behind of my previously isolated work setting to interaction constantly. Basically, I am a loner. Just following the first pass of this return, I embraced the unexpected opportunity to leave the Coven that was the first home of 18 years within our Tradition and form the 12th Coven of that Tradition. The final passing of this second Saturn return, punctuating 10 months of planning, additional teaching and more in preparation for a smooth transition in the next several months. Again, another make-over, forcing me into networking and starting all over again with a new group of people, circumstances and flow.
Remember I said that the Saturn return will also play out in the House where that planet resides in your birth chart? Saturn and my natal Moon (emotional landscape and processing) are both in my Fifth House- the House of Creative Endeavors. Now think about my two experiences with Saturn’s return. All are at the emotional level dealing with those things that have/are the creative products of my life. Pretty cool, huh!
During the time of your Saturn return, you receive a double helping of imminent order and change- whether you wish it or not. This is where we can either see the container as half empty or half full, the former usually being the perspective that has denoted this phase of our life’s journey as the “dreaded” Saturn return. I choose to see it as a time to tidy up house, reassess, actively and purposefully surrender to the process and see what new opportunities emerge as potential. And, in the process implement the adage, “Know Thyself”.
With these thoughts in mind, I have actively been engaged in preparation for this event for several years leading up to it. I also knew that there would be three times of agitation and stirring up the foundations. The first occurred in the Winter of 2014 – the second this Spring and now this final conjunction in the Fall; fully thrust into the power of Three. I see this as the co-joining of the Crone calling to herself the memory of the Maiden and the nurturing of the Mother. Each of these points opportunities to review, refine and look through the lens of objective time to re-structure what my focus will be moving forward.
Much of what we attribute Saturn’s energy to is based upon the Ancient Roman God, Saturnus. He was revered as a god of generation, dissolution, plenty, periodic renewal(birth) and liberation (death). Saturnalia was his Festival, held in December and was a time of feasting and revelry. Eventually, Saturn became associated with Chronos – “Father Time”, the passing or changing of the aeons as one supplanted the other. Any change in time causes disruption and the amount of that disruption is largely dependent upon how much order and structure is enforced to cause it to proceed “just so”.
Another perspective of Saturn is that of its placement on the Qabalistic Tree of Life and the sphere of Binah. Binah is one of the three that form the Supernal Triangle representing the active principle of creation. Binah is considered the Great Mother. She is the womb of container that holds the seed of potential and it is Her structure and order that in time and if viable begins the journey towards manifest form in the last sphere of Malkuth. For those of you not familiar with Qabalah I have listed some resources at the end, but for now all you need is that concept of the Creatrix.
The Gates of Saturn
I am Jove’s partner
Without me all would dissipate into the ether.
Structure order boundary and container
Are all creations of my domain.
I have seen aeons pass and know each
Of the secrets that have been carefully hidden from view.
I am record keeper and guardian of destiny
And those who are not mindful of the depth of
My perception will remain forever on the wheel.
I speak the sacred words~ the unutterable~
Heard only by those who have remained constant
And vigilant throughout the tests of time.
I am held tightly within the womb of the Great Mother
And stand as witness at humanity’s rebirth.
The final mystery is revealed and mind and heart shall be one.
A Time of Grace
Think now on the concepts of Father Time and Mother Creatrix. Parents, if you will who are responsible for creating the proper environment for their creations to thrive, grow and experience life’s lessons. If done well, this is a process of knowing when to tighten up and when to leave more room for exploration, also implying falls, cuts, bruises, joys and sorrows. What emerges from these periodic spurts is a newly refined creation, that has the weight of past experience now ready to inform the choices made in the present and moving into the future.
So, I have accepted Saturn’s return as an opportunity to shed the outworn excuses, fumbles and missteps and carry forward the timeliness of seeing myself as one who has with grace and intention navigated all the changes life has gifted me.
Qabalah: Just the Basics
Geburah’s Might: Part One
Full Moon in Aries
Total Lunar Eclipse
The energy has been building exponentially- retrogrades, lunar cycles and eclipses have been dancing the celestial dance and now the time for breaking through is at hand.
The Moon waxes Full late tomorrow evening in the astrological sign of Aries. Aries is Fire, new beginnings (the first sign of the astrological wheel), unbridled enthusiasm and just the injection needed to pull us out of the heaviness we’ve been experiencing. Now, that is not to say that there are not still challenging times ahead, but consider this Full moon an opportunity to reset and realign. The astrological sign of Aries is noted as the “baby” of the zodiac. I prefer to think of its energy more that of the child. Children are naturally enthusiastic and see no limits to what they believe they can accomplish. Children trust what is around them, giving unconditionally and embracing every new experience. That is until, they are taught fear, caution, mistrust and begin the process of creating blocks. This full Moon brings an opportunity to reset to that space of openness and receptivity, expecting only the best as a future outcome.
The Total Lunar Eclipse
A total lunar eclipse occurs when the Moon phases Full as the Sun – Earth and Moon line up; with the Moon passing through the Earth’s shadow. Spiritually, this energy can be considered as an opportunity of centering (our Earthly form) and opening to the strengthening of Solar Will (Sun) and the enlivened shadow of the Lunar Flow (Moon) of our Emotional self.
Click on the image for some very interesting scientific information about this Super Moon
The Moon in Aries provides a fresh perspective when engaging the emotional landscape that is revealed in the fullness of Lady Moon. The planet Mercury recently stationed retrograde, as is Uranus and Neptune as well. Remember that Sun-Earth and Moon dynamic that is occurring during the eclipse? We have Fire – Earth – and Water at play. Retrogrades provide an intensity of focus of the energy of that planet. Mercury is retrograde in Libra (Air) – Uranus is retrograde in Aries (Fire) – and Neptune is retrograde in Pisces (Water).
During this super-moon the dance is a trio of Fire- Earth and Water, action/will partnering within the foundational and human experience that is expressed so beautifully through our emotions, desires and compassion.
The Sun and Retrograde Mercury recently transited into the Airy sign of Libra. Taking that into consideration, we have all four of the alchemical elements represented during this dynamic Full Moon and Lunar eclipse. The bountiful gifts of each Full Moon are punctuated by the relationships and interactions in a dance of emotional empowerment and active will. The gifts of this Moon are those of great expectations and excitement about all that lay ahead as we begin anew the inner dialogue (Mercury-communication) of alignment (much like the alignment of sun-earth and moon in the eclipse) of Mind (Air-Sun/Mercury)- Heart (Moon/Neptune) – the Fire of Action and Will (Uranus) and Body (Earth).
Blessings of this Moon of grace and light…
Distant planet Pluto stations direct early tomorrow morning moving from its intensity of retrograde that began back in April of this year. Astrologically, this planet of mystery and depth remains in the Earthy and Cardinal sign of Capricorn. Capricorn is known as the “Sea-Goat” which speaks to its energy of navigating both the heights and depths of experience with sure-footedness and a very grounded demeanor. At times, this grounded predisposition leads to inactivity as just the precise placement of action is sought; a pursuit which is not always readily attained. So, with this caution applied to Pluto, the planet of regeneration, death, crossings and those far away and unknown experiences, you may have felt stuck in the same holding pattern of expression and the replaying of the same life’s lessons.
Astrologically, the planet Pluto rules the sign of Scorpio. Much like the ability of Capricorn’s Sea-Goat to reach deep into the emotional depths and rise to the mental heights, Scorpio is equally at home hidden in the earth(Scorpion), soaring for greater perspective (Eagle) and ascending within the Fires of Rebirth as the Phoenix. In this retrograde, Pluto’s shape-shifting is directed towards what is built as foundation (Capricorn) rather than intent upon reshaping the emotional selves. And, just as the Phoenix is the higher expression of emotion transformed into useable and regenerative desire, the goal of higher form here is one of knowledge of the truly Divine nature of our humanity held within the vessel of human form and experience.
I have always felt Pluto to be the point of return, that holds the patterns of all time. We cross the threshold of death (or release) carrying with us the lessons we have learned from experiencing that life. We enter into the unknown, hoping that we will return born anew and transformed through the gift of regeneration. We circle back, so to speak to what was our past, that has now begun our future as we stand in the present of our making. Pluto offers the gift of being able to simultaneously draw from our past, as we use the present action to weave the future that occurs seconds later.
The energy of this retrograde has been a drilling down deeply into the stores of what and who we are as manifest life forms. Think of drilling deeply into the earth, churning up soil, rock and more. Each layer being displaced in the uprising of this energy as the past story of each layer is revealed in present time. What is excavated dictates the response and reaction that will determine what the future steps will be.
Feeding into this revealing of sorts have been the counterpoints of Uranus (July 26) and Neptune (June 12) also being Retrograde. This gave the impetus of Fire (Uranus in Aries)- Water (Neptune in its Ruling sign of Pisces) and Earth (Pluto in Capricorn) weaving their magick of big and lasting change. Think the liquid flow of lava deep within the Earth’s core. I will be writing more about this over the weekend.
Now,as Pluto begins its cycle of return back to the mid-point of a present and processing state Mercury recently stationed Retrograde. This is the opportunity to slow down, unplug (from technology) and really listen to what your messenger self has to communicate about your experience of Pluto’s renewal. Take the time to carefully and thoughtfully review what contracts have been made during this Pluto retrograde at the level of Spirit and your place in the limitless flow of life, energy and intention brought into manifest form – namely you.
Take your time and assess your best vantage point to reach back to retrieve what of your past (lives) will inform this present form. Then, and only then move forward, each step with the sure-footedness of the (sea)Goat as you scale the mountain of the aspirations of your future being.
A Little Visualization:
Take some time looking at the picture I selected to accompany this post. Imagine the spinning of this top and its perfect point of balance as the cycle and flow of top and bottom move just so within the energy surrounding it. Each tip narrowing down(or up) to a thin and perfectly shaped point. If in perfect alignment it does not matter which end you begin the motion from, there are equal in their support of the center mass. This central point the place of flattening and leveling out providing enough circular surface to neither under or over tip. The top spins and simultaneously and seamlessly the energy of the top and bottom points spirals inward meeting centrally and providing the correct amount of tension for the center to spin, cutting through and creating its own vibration of energy rippling outwards, moving through time and space.
Now envision yourself as this top. The points of balance on either end, interchangeable and recyclable as past and future. Both points drawing inward to support the mass of your present experience. All simultaneously moving as one, yet distinctly apart. All shaping and reforming the energy that surrounds and is within you.
Venus in Leo
In the early hours of this morning, Venus, the planet of relationships and refinement, moved from its retrograde pattern and began its movement forward once again. The retrograde began July 25th and the dynamic of its focused intention caused a deeper than usual scrutiny of our relationships at all levels of interaction.
Venus is the ruling planet of Taurus and Libra which in and of itself gives insight to the way in which Venusian energy flows and changes its quality. Astrological Taurus is typified by its solid anchoring (Earth sign), stability of purpose (Fixed) and immoveable determination to secure anything it acquires. There is a deep emotional connection to those manifest things it assumes responsibility for and so deep attachment is fostered in guarding and standing ground in maintaining a safe and secure environment for those things or people.
Libra’s approach is also one of safeguarding, but because of the mental (Air sign) nature of this sign, it naturally seeks to refine and harmonize those relationships and attachments. It mentally takes inventory of all that is of beauty and quality and all that is lackluster in appearance and form and then weighs and deliberates how it will interact and forge a relationship with each aspect. In considering both of these approaches that Venus presents, it is no wonder that she is enigmatic and selective in who and what she offers her time, attention and gifts of engagement towards.
Venus began her retrograde in the very beginning degrees of the astrological sign of Virgo, sorter and analyzer extraordinaire. The focus on relationships took on the mantle of dissection and calculation; the first steps towards breaking down who and what were worthy of your time, affection and attention. As Venus transited into the later degrees of astrological Leo (Fixed Fire and electromagnetic attraction), this attention to the relationships, loves and beauty that was until then acceptable in your life was brought fully into Leo’s spotlight. Some of what was revealed in this light was the truth surrounding who you have attracted into your life that no longer meets the tests of greater discernment.
And, because this action was taking place when Leo was at its strongest and most developed degrees of energy, the wisdom and ability to release the illusion of old loves raised the intensity of your desire for change and perhaps, even higher standards around those who would receive the beauty of your affection.
The release of this intensity of Venus’ call to acknowledge and realize your own power to choose wisely and fully embrace those who will share your love and gifts of relationship and interaction may have caused you to second guess those in your life. Powerful change has been at play and you now have a different sensibility about what love and friendship, relationship and harmony, balance in all things and the freedom to choose your companions mean to you. How others will react to this change is of no matter and those who try to manipulate you into unhealthy relationships will have to go.
Venus is very good at allowing us to deceive ourselves by the glamour of what we idealize as beauty and love. She is also very good at showing us the truth of our own beauty and the value of ourselves, first in the manner in which we love ourselves and then as the organic flow of that love towards others. Being open to these lessons and heeding her wisdom in all of our affairs will dramatically lesson the times we will be called to say- “But, I thought you were my friend!”.
Read More about Venus:
Stop, in the Name of Love!
The Temple of Venus (Asstd Posts)
Learning to Love
Full Moon in Pisces
Sun in Virgo
Step softly into my arms
Feel the feathery brush of my kiss
For you are my Beloved
And I tremble within your embrace.
Our hearts beat strongly as one
Our bodies no longer defined and
I rest in the sweet breath of your exhale
Gazing back into your loving face.
Our union in rapture complete
Soul’s yearning finally at peace
The Illuminated One my beloved
Mirror of SELF in Divinity released.
The Moon waxed Full just a few hours ago and the atmosphere is filled with a quiet and gentleness that has not been so for some time now. It is a momentarily reprieve from some very dynamic and charged astrological energy and much like the solace found in the arms of a loved one after the battering of the world; this is a time to renew and languish in the healing waters. Mother Moon is in the astrological sign of Pisces, the mistress of compassion and healing; and although She squared off with Saturn in Scorpio early this morning, the tension between the two is offset by Retrograde Neptune also in Pisces, the astrological sign it Rules.
Water is everywhere, Pisces and Scorpio- the Moon and Neptune – and Saturn has a part to play in the order it is striving towards much like the Mother that accepts nothing but the best for her beloved and will stop time itself to provide what is needed. The intuitive heart of Scorpio (Saturn) guides this process but what it reveals may not be what you feel is needed. Put aside fear of reaching into those dark waters and remember that change and ultimately transformation are the same components needed to heal a wound or repair a heart that has been broken.
There is a great depth to felt with this Full Moon; Neptune supporting that deeper reach into waters that are filled with unseen potential, but carry the gift of bioluminescence to protect and to light the way. Saturn in Scorpio provides the Gate to probe into those deeper mysteries of our emotions and intuitively seek what is needed to bring structure to a compassion that flows freely and strongly (Pisces) often without regard to its own nurturing. This is the tension of a conflict (square) that is balanced by foundational sides that are not so dissimilar in nature; each having a valid point and perspective in a tug of war between giving too much and holding back.
We can call upon the aid of clarity from the Sun in Virgo. Here we will find the balance of will and strength that has practiced long the work of analyzing, sorting and finding the best that can be had towards productive result. Here we have informed (Virgo being ruled by Mercury, the master communicator) Will that stimulates this flow of waters that rise high and reach deeply. Compassion, for self and others, loosened the hardest of hearts. Deep and abiding love for self and others, unblocks any challenge that wish to pull us away from a path of understanding. And, a heart that knows what lay on the surface as well as what remains in the abyss below can bring resolution to what prevents us from seeing the truth of the world.
Tonight I will hold my beloved
Tonight I will honor my ability to feel deeply and strongly
Tonight I will allow the hand of the Divine to guide me
Tonight I will breathe deeply into the gentle light of my compassionate self
Tonight I will hold my beloved
And the illusions of the world will fall away
New Moon in Leo
Sun in Leo
Venus Retrograde in Leo
Mars in Leo
The Lion roars and all know that raw power is soon to be exerted. Tomorrow mid-morning Lady Moon calls to Father Sun in her garb as maiden. She heralds new beginnings that are infused by passion (Venus) and aggression (Mars). Four celestial bodies are clothed in the regal Fires of Leo heating up the energetic plains as the Lion stands in authority.
Three of these energies, Sun-Moon and Retrograde Venus are aligned in an astrological aspect of conjunction. A conjunction occurs when two planets are very close to one another (within a 10-degree span) at any given time. This is much like a dialogue that is supportive and sustaining, particularly when the planets energies’ involved are compatible. Imagine an acquaintance leaning in to tell you something they wish to share with only you. In this current dialogue the duos of the Sun (dynamic force) and Venus (relationships and refinement) and the Sun and Moon (as always when a New Moon occurs) are in deep conversation as the polarities of Masculine and Feminine find the place of cohesion.
The New Moon in Leo offers ample opportunity to bring those emotions and passions that flow a little cooler normally, front and center. The catalyzing aspect of Fire are well used in this beginning flow that will ultimately find its fullness of expression as the Moon waxes towards its next phase on the 29th of the month.
Venus stationed retrograde in late July and the focus of its attention has been directed in refining relationships, expressing the beauty and love that can be achieved when that “extra effort” is given. Additionally, this Venus retrograde now resting within the pride of Leo can explore a deeper approach to matters of the heart. This dynamic energy is not limited to romantic pursuits, but flows into all aspects of our life. Wherever we experience the rising of passion for whatever is the object of that excitement a deeper connection and opening to the reciprocity of this flow will occur. This is one of the reasons why addictions can be so insidious and unexpected. What begins as a harmless yearning, has potential to become a driving force that consumes rather than feeds.
Read more about Venus:
Add to this mix Fiery Mars. Assertion, aggression, challenge and explosive change are all within the directives of this planet’s basic nature. A little extra Fire and action that is driven by fierce will are what is necessary for the Lion (Leo) to sustain all that it considers part of its territory. This is the desire and need of a passionate tryst that ignites the consummate union of lovers whose loving action creates new life in the months that follows.
This is the perfect recipe for any working that needs an extra boost of quickening, that will persevere through every challenge (Mars), engage at the deepest seas of refined relationship (Venus) and flow through the emotional landscape (Moon) held lovingly in the strength (Sun) of a light that guards, protects and releasing the Roar of its own power (Leo).
Lady Moon moves silently
Cloaked in the womb of
Newly birthed form.
Father Sun lights
The way of a heart
That seeks its
And what was
Unsure and afraid
Of its own desire
And hunger pushes
Forward in pursuit
Of its prey.